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28 oktober Fun TimesThe wedding reception was a blast! I got there exactly when it started and stayed until the very end! I didn’t expect to stay until the end but I was having so much fun the next thing I knew it was time to go home. My family really wanted me to stay the night but I promised My Prince I would be home that night. I’m glad I went home that night because My Prince and I got a lot accomplished on Sunday with the house whereas if I stayed over I would have lost half of Sunday.
It was really great seeing my family again though. We danced, we ate, and we laughed. I really didn’t want it to end.
~ FC 23 oktober A Dress, A Wedding Reception, and ThanksgivingA Dress:
Last night I went out shopping for a dress to wear to Hillary’s wedding reception on Saturday. I found a dress that I’m hoping says to people, “simple but elegant”. What do you think?
I also bought a pair of shoes to go with it and I love them. They definitely say, “elegant and awesome!” I couldn’t find a picture of them though. Plus everything was on sale. The only problem was the actual trying on of dresses. I was mortified to see myself in some dresses. I looked like a cow!
A Wedding Reception:
As you know on Saturday I’m going to Hillary’s wedding reception. I’m not really looking forward to it because I have gained so much weight and because My Prince won’t be coming with me. Also, our family hasn’t felt like a “family” in quite a long time. But maybe if I look ‘fabulous’ in my new dress and shoes then I might feel ‘fabulous’. Here’s hoping!
Thanksgiving:
My Prince’s Mom decided that we would have Thanksgiving at My Prince’s and my house this year. She even invited their whole family over without even asking we were just told that’s what was happening. Well now I find out today that my Pappy may be coming home for Thanksgiving. When I told My Prince this he said that we would have to be apart for Thanksgiving because his family is already coming over to our house. This bums me out on so many different levels it’s not even funny. Part of me wants to be in my new house for my first Thanksgiving but more of me wants to go spend Thanksgiving with my Pappy, which I haven’t done for over 10 years. Plus, my Pappy isn’t in the best of health and I want to take advantage of the time that I’m presented while I still can. But that doesn’t stop me from being bummed out.
Overall I’m in a bummed out mood today, which isn’t helping matters any but what can you do? ~ FC 22 oktober Oh… what’s that? Bullets? Ok!q I have been so tired lately I hate it! I never feel completely rested! All I want to do is sleep. Then I go home from work and do everything but sleep because there’s just too much to do. I’m ready for my nap now.
q This weekend I’m driving out 3 ½ hours to attend my cousin, Hillary’s, wedding reception. I don’t want to go and I know My Prince doesn’t want to go. Because of this event I have to go dress shopping, which in my current situation I do not want to do. I’m really dreading this task.
q Have I mentioned how tired I am?
q I’ve learned that when My Prince isn’t home to eat dinner with me at night that I eat more and unhealthy things. I’ve got to work on this.
q My back/sciatica nerve is slowly getting better. I’m even going to go for a walk on my lunch break to see how I feel.
q I met another neighbor in my new neighborhood yesterday. She was very nice and friendly!
q I can’t believe we’re halfway through October and this is the first time I’m mentioning Halloween! I’m very excited about doing Halloween at my new house!!! If I have time I’ll do a Halloween post.
q Have I told you yet that I need sleep? Oh! I did? Well… move along, there’s nothing else to see here.
~ FC 20 oktober Return of the Pinched Sciatica Nerve and Other ThingsThis morning I went for a 40-minute walk and 1 bus ride, and short walk to the office later I’m in pain. I recognize this pain from last year when I pinched my sciatica nerve. When I go to stand up and/or sit down is when it’s at it’s worst. When I stand up and start to walk forward I walk with a limp because it’s so painful. I hate this! It’s so frustrating!
Also, tonight My Prince and I are going to meet with our insurance agent about getting me a life insurance policy. The guy likes to talk, which means sitting in an uncomfortable chair for a long time with a sore back. That is not a good combination! I’m hoping that it’ll start to feel better soon. I still have muscle relaxers from the last time I had this so I do have some help if it gets too bad. But I’m hoping it won’t come to that.
My cousin, Hillary, is having her wedding reception this coming weekend and I’m really not looking forward to going. My family’s relationship is just so strained any more it doesn’t seem worth it. But, I do feel obligated to go. Also, I have to go shopping for a dress that I can fit into for the reception =P.
I also have to fix the Evil Stepfather’s Brother’s computer. I was guilted into doing it by my Mom. I told her to bring the computer over to my house and I’d work on it at home. I dislike the ESF’s (Evil Stepfather) Brother even more than the ESF himself. I don’t want to do this but I know if I were to decline on doing it the ESF would treat me like crap for not helping out. So, I’m hoping that I can get that done and over with as painlessly as possible.
We’ll see how it all goes. ~ FC 17 oktober Things I Miss...I wasn't going to post this after I typed it up today. But I guess it's something to read if you're bored.
q Girl friends who live close by
q Having a girls’ night out
q Having my Grammy to talk to and comfort me
q “Dating” My Prince on the weekend (I’ll explain this another time)
q Family gatherings where we all really felt like a family
q Good home cooked food
q Having Disney movie marathons with my Mom
q Shopping for fun without guilt
q The warm weather of summer
q All of the daylight of summer
q My cousin Heather
q Not having adult responsibilities
q Believing in Santa
q Birthdays that were so exciting it felt like my own personal Christmas
q Going to school
q The possibility of having any career I want
q Being able to cry whenever I want or my body feels like it
q Not worrying about my health
q Going to Myrtle Beach every summer for two weeks like I had growing up
q The sound of the ocean
q The smell, feel, and look of the beach
q Weekends with just My Prince and me
q Summer vacation for school
q Not needing a job
q Eating candy corn (or any candy for that matter)
~ FC 16 oktober Sensitive SubjectI haven’t posted about this because… well it’s a sensitive subject with me. But here it is, recently I’ve been trying to get back on the healthy track (again). My head was in the game and I was doing pretty well. Then last night I found out that not only am I not doing that well, but also I have a few health issues I didn’t even know I had. I apologize for being vague but I’m doing it on purpose. I can only say so much about this issue but needed to get it ‘off my chest’ so to speak.
I felt like I was emotionally slapped in the face last night. It was a real eye opener and now today I’m more dedicated and focused than I was. I realize this isn’t going to be easy but I feel the drive for this more than I ever have before. But at the same time I’m scared.
I just got pushed over the edge emotionally with this newfound information. I’ve been so stressed lately and doing my best to keep my head above the water and now I’m faced with yet another challenge. I honestly don’t feel strong enough to handle all that has been placed before me. But what choice do I have but to do my best and handle these challenges to the best of my abilities?
Can anyone spare a hug?
~ FC 15 oktober Tomorrow is Boss’s DayDid you remember? If not, you’re welcome for the reminder! If you did, what are you doing for your boss tomorrow?
Somehow I became the designated person to do the gifts for the managers in my office. I’m not sure how this happened; all I know is that I don’t want to do it any more. I end up pulling teeth to get these people to give me their money and then I end up eating the cost difference because they aren’t willing to give me a reasonable amount of money to buy the gifts with.
This year I decided on the following gifts and am quite impressed with my selections:
President of the company is getting this:
The VP is getting this:
The VP really likes unique watches and LOVES cats. So this really was the perfect gift for her.
The office manager is getting this:
As I’m sure you can surmise from this she is into scrapbooking.
Then I am also buying a gift on my own for my own manager. She is getting one dozen of Chocolate Chocolate Chip Cookies. She is a chocolate fanatic and loves chocolate chip cookies. I decided this was the perfect gift for her.
This is much better than just purchasing them gift cards. But next year I might change my tune! This was a lot of hard work!
~ FC 10 oktober Confession TimeI’ve been thinking a lot lately about life (big surprise there, huh?). I must confess that I miss going to school. If you remember I had registered for one class at the local community college at around this same time last year. It was hard and stressful at times but it was also fun and liberating.
I had fully intended on going back the following semester to take another class or two but ran into a small financial situation that did not enable me to do so. The next thing I know it’s a year later since I was enrolled in that class. I really miss it, a lot.
Plus, I had felt like I was starting to head in the right direction for my career. It really bums me out that I just spent a boatload on a house and I’m now even more financially strapped than I was before. The odds of me being able to go back to school again any time soon is pretty slim. This depresses me greatly.
Every time I see a young child I smile and my heart smiles too. Then I start daydreaming about what it would be like to be in a classroom somewhere teaching those very same little children. Then my heart breaks when reality hits.
Not to mention that if I want to get married to My Prince any time in the near future that pushes school even further out of my reach. It’s like a vicious cycle:
Any suggestions?
~ FC 09 oktober Good DeedsI’m not sure why but lately I’ve been doing a few good deeds. The experience and the gratitude just make it worth it (usually).
One of my new co-workers, Alice*, just turned 21 last Saturday. It was so cute how excited she was to be turning 21. She reminded all of us for almost 3 weeks that she would be turning 21 on October 4th. I remember when I first started working this job I was 20 and two months later I turned 21. I actually came into work on my 21st birthday. When I arrived in the morning there were birthday balloons, a bottle of wine, and a few birthday cards waiting for me. I was delighted! I thought it was SO nice considering I had just started 2 months prior and they actually acknowledged this milestone. We haven’t had anyone turn 21 since, so when I found out Alice was turning 21 I decided to give her that same special feeling I received on my 21st.
On Thursday, October 2nd I drove over to Party City to pick up some goodies for Alice. I bought her the following items:
Totaling: $65.00
I drove in early the next day so that I would be able to decorate her cubicle with all of the goodies I had bought for her. This meant that I had to park in our building: $17.00 I was successful in setting up her stuff before she came in (she was actually late to work).
When she came in and saw what I had done she ‘seemed’ happy with her surprise. It was kind of hard to tell because she’s a little on the odd side and because she was still flustered over being late to work.
Now for a quick side story: Alice came from my college. She majored in Business though where as I majored in Computers. I thought she had a strange personality but I believe in giving people more than just the initial first impression. First impressions can be completely off in a good or bad way depending on the person. Anyway, the more time I spent with her the more I thought she might be ‘ok’. Then one day she turned from ‘ok’ to ‘not ok’. I dismissed it and allowed her a second chance and again she turned from ‘ok’ to ‘not ok’. I decided to distance myself from her and keep it casual with her. I guess this is all my way of saying, “I don’t really like her.”
Now I know what you are thinking, “Geez, you don’t like any of your new co-workers.” This is not true and perhaps I’ll write something on the new co-workers that I like very much. But right now the ‘odd balls’ are just a better read in my opinion.
Nonetheless, I decided to push those feelings aside and still do my good deed. I rather enjoyed it. I just wish her reaction to it had been better. Oh well, that’s an ‘oddball’ for you.
I’m not sure what it is with birthdays and me but I do like to celebrate them with people, especially with those who are friends and family. A few weeks ago my friend, Karen*, from the head quarter office had a birthday as well. I went a little over board with her care package but I loved every second of it. I put together the following present for her:
Karen and I work closely together on security access when it comes to my users. However, Karen works/lives in MA where my company’s head quarters is. But when we’re on the phone together we end up talking business and then having a blast! We’re always laughing and having a good time. You wouldn’t believe we were co-workers talking if you heard our conversations. I often wish that we lived closer to each other because she would be my best girl friend.
She was absolutely thrilled and surprised by my gifts. I loved her reaction! She immediately IM’d me and we chatted for a good 20 minutes via IM over the presents and her birthday. She really is a cool woman.
On Tuesday it hit me that what goes around comes around because I found a card in my mailbox when I got to work. When I opened it I found a card congratulating me on my new house with a gift card to Bed, Bath, & Beyond enclosed. It was a substantial amount that completely surprised and overwhelmed me. I thanked my manager profusely for this surprise. I wasn’t expecting anything from anyone, but this was a special gift.
~ FC
*Names have been changed to protect the innocent 08 oktober My DayYesterday morning I woke up and greeted the day with a smile. My hair was done perfectly, my outfit did not make me feel or look fat, and I felt ‘put together’. I arrived at work with a positive outlook that the day was indeed going to be a great day and that any problems that I was to face I would tackle with a vengeance!
Not only did I finally except my new co-worker Susan but also we became fast friends! I fixed all of her computer problems with great ease. Plus, I was able to resolve all of the other problems that I was faced with yesterday as well.
Every time I looked in the mirror I did not cringe with disgust, but rather smiled sweetly at my reflection thinking that my hair looked great, my eyes really are my best physical feature, and that the outfit I was wearing really did make me look slimmer.
I also had so much energy that I went for a walk on my lunch break and ended up walking longer than I had intended because it felt that good. I enjoyed my lunch of a veggie bagel sandwich and a side of fruit salad, feeling proud of myself for being so healthy!
Then I left work on time, caught my bus (that was early), and kicked back and read my book on my luxurious ride home.
Once I got home, I changed into my comfy clothes and smiled once again to myself about how adorable I looked in them. Tied my hair up in a messy ponytail that ended up looking like I had gone to the salon to have done and began sorting through boxes to unpack in my new house.
I made so much progress on unpacking the boxes that when My Prince arrived home from work he was impressed and loved where I set everything up saying, “that it finally felt like home”. After kissing me and telling me how beautiful I was; we flirtatiously ran upstairs and began the fun task of making dinner together.
Not only was dinner delicious and easily prepared but also we ate healthy, fresh foods that left us feeling invigorated! So, after we cleaned up from dinner we grabbed each other’s hands and went for a romantic walk around our new neighborhood.
Finally, ending the night cuddled on our brand new (whole) couch while watching the presidential debate. Once the debate was over we peacefully made our way to bed and fell quickly asleep in each other’s arms. Here’s what really happened yesterday:
Yesterday morning I woke up still feeling exhausted and like I hadn’t slept at all. My hair was a curly mess on my head that made me snort with disgust, my outfit made me look and feel fat, and I felt like a big fat blob of hair and clothes. I arrived at work with a negative outlook because I still had two unresolved problems to solve for Susan, not to mention all of the other problems that I have been putting off.
Not only do I still feel uncomfortable around Susan, but also I find myself stumbling over my words when trying to sound intelligent around her. I did not fix any of her computer problems and was greeted with the awful task of trying to fix them, yet again, today. Plus, I still haven’t resolved any of the other problems that I was faced with yesterday.
Every time I looked in the mirror I DID cringe with disgust, and couldn’t help but think that my hair looked awful, that I have no good physical features, and that the outfit I was wearing really did make me look fatter.
I also was so tired that I did not go for a walk on my lunch break and ended up falling asleep at the desk I was sitting at. I did not enjoy my lunch of left over pizza and taco casserole and realized with every bite how unhealthy it was.
Then I left work on time and missed my bus that drove up to the stop without the sign telling me that it was indeed my bus. So, I trudged back to my office while throwing a temper tantrum to My Prince on my cell phone about how mad I was and that he had to pick me up. Then I proceeded to whine, complain, and argue with My Prince the whole way home. Plus, to top it off I was so flustered that I misguided My Prince on the directions home and had us drive through a bad part of town, which inevitably took us longer to get home.
Once we finally got home, I changed into my comfy clothes and once again looked upon my reflection in disgust. Tied my hair up in a messy ponytail that ended up looking like I had just pulled myself out of bed and did not sort through boxes to unpack in my new house. But rather poured My Prince and myself a glass of peach wine and began to sulk over my sucky @$$ day.
My Prince then started to reheat leftovers that we’ve been meaning to finish before the food goes bad in the refrigerator. Not only was dinner not delicious but it also was not healthy, fresh foods that did not leave us feeling invigorated.
Finally, ending the night cuddled on our brand new (half, because the store still hasn’t delivered the other half) couch while watching the presidential debate. Once the debate was over we made our way to bed and fell quickly asleep in each other’s arms. Maybe today will be better?
~ FC 07 oktober New To WorkHere at the hellhole place I call “work” we’re growing. Which means we’re hiring new people all the time. This brings me to one of our newest editions by the name of Susan*. Susan just started last Thursday and I don’t know if I like her or if I’m just trying to like her because she is annoying the loving shit out of me.
Her personality reminds me of my Aunt Bee and now that I’m thinking about it her looks kind of do too. She knows enough about computers to get herself in trouble and make my job that much harder. But the fact that I’ve had to work with her in the past three out of four days that she’s been here has been rather disturbing. I cringe inside when I hear her voice near.
Yet, when I interact with her I find myself laughing and acting overly nice to her. What do you think this means? Maybe I feel guilty for being annoyed by her? I don’t know. I just wish she would leave me alone for at least one full business day.
~ FC
* Names have been changed to protect the innocent 01 oktober An Update – My HouseMy Prince and I closed on our house last Friday, WOO-HOO! It was very exciting but since I was sick I didn’t really get to enjoy it. We started cleaning like crazy on Friday. Then on Saturday we rented a huge truck and went to our storage shed and packed up all of my stuff and took it to the house. That was a long and hard day. On Sunday we continued unpacking boxes, setting up furniture, and moving some of My Prince’s stuff over to the house. I was starting to feel better until Sunday night then I turned for the worse and didn’t really help any more. Monday the chaos continued with Verizon coming and setting us up with Fios. We’re both very excited about this! Still we kept up with the unpacking of things. Yesterday I returned to work and I’m still not completely back to normal but I think I’m well on my well to recovering (finally!). Yesterday, My Prince and part of the Royal Family set up our bedroom furniture. Today, I’m very excited because our living room furniture is coming! YAY!!! We’ll have a couch again!!!! So, things are slowly coming together. My Prince seems to be adjusting well and so do I.
Unfortunately, I’m pretty exhausted still so I’m still not helping much. But I’m hoping I’ll be back to my old self by this weekend.
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