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26 februari Trying for “normal”I realize my posts haven’t been very uplifting these past few weeks. I don’t want to come off as one of those people who constantly have a “black cloud” over their heads. So, I’m going to attempt at some “normal” stuff that’s going on right now.
Last night, My Prince and I went to the hockey game. It would have been more fun if the team actually came to play. However, the good news is that they won. Just barely, with one goal scored within the last two minutes of the game. But the victory still tasted just as sweet. My Prince invited one of his co-workers and wife along with us. It was nice to go out with people close to our own ages opposed to going to the game with The Royal Family. I hope we can do something like that again soon.
My Prince and I have been talking about figuring out a budget so that we can get married soon. I want us to have a beach ceremony with just immediate family and then come home for a rockin’ reception party. I just need to crunch some numbers to see how we can pull this off. But hopefully it’ll be something that we can do in the near future.
Speaking of weddings, my stepbrother is getting married this June. I’m pretty excited about it, which surprises me because my stepbrother hasn’t exactly been kind to me recently. But nonetheless, I’m still looking forward to it. The ceremony will be held in a rose garden near my Dad’s house. Then the reception will be held at my Dad’s house afterwards. I’m sure it’ll be a good time for everyone.
Ok, don’t laugh. But if you like your cereal in the morning you have got to try the new Banana Nut Flavored Cheerios. Seriously, this is my new favorite cereal and everyone needs to go buy it so they don’t pull it off the shelf. If you like bananas then you’ll like this cereal. Also, it’s only 100 calories per serving. A great tasting cereal with low calories, life just doesn’t get any better. Hurry! Go try it now!
As long as I’m on a health talk here I should probably mention that I have officially lost 10lbs. I am very excited about this and am eager to lose my next 10lbs. The fitness center in my office building has been a great escape and stress reliever for me. I continue to look forward to going down on my lunch break to workout. I’m also back in doing the Boot Camp. Those of you who have read me from the beginning will remember that I was doing this workout regimen when I first started this blog. It’s been a tough road, but I’m sticking to my guns pretty good.
 I also enjoy reading about the Sisterhood. If you haven’t read them yet and are trying to lose weight you should check them out. They also have a St. Patty’s Day challenge going on.
 Happy Friday Eve,
~ FC
24 februari Bad Day for SaturdayThis past Saturday was horrific. I keep getting flashes back to Saturday and it’s driving me quite insane. I just want it to stop.
This Saturday Teddy was being buried. The day started out as normal as any day that you are going to a burial. First stop, the funeral home to say last good-byes. Next stop to the church for a mass.
The problem was my Dad. He was asked to give a eulogy and he was nervous. All he had to eat that morning was a piece of toast. He kept telling my sister and I how upset he was and how he wasn’t sure he could give the eulogy. We kept reassuring him and trying our best to calm him down. Well, apparently none of this was helping and we didn’t realize it until we got to the church.
The church was tiny and very hot. We were packed into the pews like sardines. Everyone was sweating; it was just that bad. My Dad started rocking in his seat and holding his head saying, “I can’t do this.” Finally he told my sister that he had to go get some fresh air so she left the church with him. I stayed behind figuring that he’d get some fresh air and my sister would calm him down and they’d be back in minutes.
Only that didn’t happen.
Instead, as I was sitting there, I hear in the back of the church my father’s name being yelled out several times. I jumped out of my seat and ran outside. That’s when I saw my Dad with a grey face sitting in a wheel chair and being dragged down to the ground. Tears sprang to my eyes and I repeatedly asked what was going on without anyone answering me.
The next thing I know they are undressing my father including cutting his shirt off of his body. He started getting a little color back in his face and started talking again. I was leaning over his head talking to him trying to get him to focus on me. He was sweating like crazy, never mind the fact that it was 20 degrees out and they had him half naked lying on the cold cement. I could hear my sister crying hysterically in the background somewhere. Everything happened so fast!
Finally they put my Dad on a stretcher to take him to the hospital. My Dad asked me to stay behind and do his eulogy for him. I did as he asked and my sister went to the hospital with him. The worst part is I didn’t even give the eulogy for my Dad. The service was running late so they just had the minister do it. I left when I found that out and proceeded to the hospital. I stayed at the hospital with my Dad for five hours.
They ran some tests on him and wanted him to stay over night. They decided that it was an anxiety attack and he passed out but otherwise would be ok. This was one of the worst things I’ve ever lived through. I didn’t know if he was having a heart attack or what.
Images of this event just keep flashing through my mind.
I didn’t get to see Teddy buried.
My heart still hurts from the loss.
The fear for my Dad’s health is still very real. ~ FC 18 februari My Friend “Teddy” (as in Teddy Bear)A friend of my family’s died yesterday around 12:00pm. The doctors said he would not survive without life support and so they were right. I don’t know how long he lasted after he was taken off life support.
A lot of hearts were broken yesterday at noon. He just got married two years ago to the mother of his child. He’s leaving behind two children (one biological). He always referred to my Dad as “Dad” or “Pops” and my Dad even walked him down the aisle on his wedding day. Even though we were different colored skin than he was he always referred to my sister and I as his siblings.
On my twenty-first birthday he came to my party and gifted me with a bottle of wine. He even gave me a kiss and I always joked around with him about how he was the only “chocolate” man I’ve ever kissed. I think he secretly enjoyed that fact.
He was also a police officer for the little town I was raised in. He was always good for a laugh. When he smiled, everyone around him smiled. He had a very good heart and shared his kindness with those around him.
It hurts my heart just thinking about the fact that he is gone. He was a part of my family and now something will always be missing.
One of my favorite moments with him was in the December of 2007 when The Royal Family and I went to our favorite Christmas Tree Festival and he was on patrol there. There was a live band playing Christmas music and he grabbed me in an embrace and began dancing with me. He was always doing spontaneous things like that. It’s part of what made him great.
I still can’t believe he is gone.
“The Good die young” couldn’t be any truer than with him.
You will be greatly missed Teddy.
~ FC
P.S. “Teddy” is not his real name. But it’s close to a nickname that he was well known by so I found it only appropriate for an alias for him. 17 februari We Talked – and – They Say Bad Things Come in 3’sLast night My Prince and I sat down and talked. We didn’t get to cover everything that we wanted, but we did cover quite a bit of ground. I made a few complaints about The Queen to him and he said he understood. He also said that he wanted to change things for the better as well. We even covered a few other issues that have taken backseat due to the overwhelming Queen issue. It was good for both of us. I feel like we both understand each other better and some progress was made. YAY!
Unfortunately, I got some bad news Sunday night. A very good friend of the family is on life support. The doctors don’t believe he’ll make a recovery and are urging his wife to take him off of life support. He’s only 35 years old. He has diabetes, is on dialysis for his bad kidneys, and ended up in the hospital due to an infection from his stint. The next thing we know he has pneumonia and we were then told that he wouldn’t survive through Sunday night without life support. I don’t know what his wife is going to do, but unfortunately I’m just waiting for the other shoe to drop. I hate this.
So, if the saying, “They say bad things come in three’s” is true then this is bad thing number 2 and I hate to think of what bad thing number 3 will be. But all we can do is take everything one day at a time and that’s what I’m trying to do.
I hope all is well in your world today.
~ FC 12 februari Having a hard time concentratingI have a confession to make. I did not talk to My Prince about “The Queen Problem” last weekend. I also have yet to bring it up to him at all this week. Last weekend I had a selfish reason for not doing it, but I didn’t do it because I had him to myself most of the weekend. We had such a good time together! I didn’t want to ruin it by bringing up this problem. So, I talked myself into waiting until this week to have the discussion with him. Well, this week is turning out to be a bad week for a talk as well.
I know I’ve mentioned this already in a past post, but My Prince is having a really tough time at work. It’s getting really bad to the point where he’s coming home so depressed and I just don’t know what to do. He says he keeps trying to make things better at work but nothing seems to be working. I feel horrible for him because I find myself feeling that way often. But I haven’t gotten to the point where I’m afraid I’m going to lose my job where as he is afraid of that.
I just feel so distracted and upset by this I don’t know what to do. I know I need to help him but I don’t know how to help him. I’ve been having a terrible time trying to concentrate on things this morning. It’s taking an emotional toll on me.
Can I ask you for some positive prayers, please?
~ FC 06 februari Something is Bothering Me – Part 2The things I listed in my last post on this were just the most recent things that are bothering me. This all started to get out of control when My Prince and I moved in together. Here’s a list of things (in no specific order) that have happened that has driven me insane:
Ø The Queen has put things up in our house and then was hurt when I moved them somewhere else. Never mind the fact that I was never asked if it was ok with me or not to put them in that location.
Ø The Queen decided that all future holiday gatherings would now be held at our house. Yes she decided, she did not ask.
Ø The Queen decided that we had to finish our game room in time for the Super Bowl because she decided that’s where we were going to watch it. She didn’t ask, she told.
Ø The Queen goes into our refrigerator without asking.
Ø The Queen goes into our house when no one is home.
Ø The Queen decided that it wasn’t ok to paint or wallpaper walls in our game room but to put paneling up, which is what we did (My Prince agreed with her on this one because she convinced him this was the correct way to do it).
Ø The Queen bought My Prince a 125-gallon fish tank after I specifically told her not to buy it.
Ø That fish tank is now sitting in our game room because The Queen decided that would be the best place for it.
Ø The Queen bought us an ugly raccoon figurine for our front yard when we first moved in and when I gave it to my Mom she was devastated.
Ø The Queen feeds the dogs on our carpets even though she was asked not to do that.
Ø The Queen decided it was ok for the dogs to get up on our brand new furniture even though I specifically disagreed.
Ø The Queen is driving me insane!!!!!!!
I am going to talk to My Prince this weekend about all of this. Please keep me in your prayers that all goes well.
~ FC 04 februari Something Is Bothering Me – Part 1I love My Prince with all of my heart and soul. I am 26 years old and don’t live at home any more, but rather I live with him now. I mostly see my parents on holidays and special occasions. Even though my parents both live within a 10-mile radius of where we live. It’s rare if one of my parents come to our house. Not because they don’t love me or I don’t love them and not because they’re not welcome. They simply realize that I have left the “nest” and am now living my own life. This is the way I feel it should be. Now granted, I probably should see my parents more often (am making mental note of this) but still on a restricted basis. Am I wrong to think this? Please give me your honest opinions. Am I a bad child for thinking this is how it’s supposed to be?
Then on the other hand My Prince has The Royal Family. We see TRF (The Royal Family) at least once a week. They live 35 miles away from us (one way) on the other side of town. The Queen drives those same 35 miles every day to have an hour lunch with My Prince. So she’s driving a total of 70 miles every day to spend one hour with My Prince. This seems wrong to me. Am I wrong to feel this way?
The Queen often buys things for My Prince and our home and then takes My Prince’s key and goes to our house and goes inside of our house to drop of said item(s). I have a problem having her in our house when we are not there. Is this wrong for me to feel this way?
Before My Prince and I started living together, every Friday was guaranteed a date night for him and me. Then we would spend every minute of the rest of the weekend together. Now it’s assumed that TRF is coming over Friday nights and then assumed that they will be there Saturday and Sunday as well. This seems wrong to me. Am I wrong to feel this way?
Every.Single.Night. The Queen calls our house to talk to My Prince and usually does so for at least 30 minutes. This seems wrong to me. Am I wrong to feel this way?
My Prince and I hardly interact during the week after work. The most we do together is eat dinner. Usually we watch TV instead of talking. This seems wrong to me. Am I wrong to feel this way?
Last night My Prince and I had the following conversation:
FC: Speaking of going out to dinner, Valentine’s Day is coming up. What would you like to do for Valentine’s Day?
MP: Oh, I wanted to talk to you about that. My Mom has those coupons still for Bell’s (this is an awesome restaurant that we go to for special occasions), but they expire this Sunday.
FC: So, what are you telling me?
MP: I thought we might go this weekend instead of Valentine’s Day weekend. FC: Oh… I guess that would be ok.
MP: It’ll be a PRE-Valentine’s Day dinner.
FC: I like the sounds of that! “Pre” usually means there’s more to come! Ok.
Then My Prince falls asleep watching the hockey game and The Queen calls for her nightly phone call. I tell her that My Prince is sleeping and she starts talking to me. This is how part of that conversation goes:
Queen: So did MP tell you about that coupon I still have?
FC: Yes.
Queen: So should I make reservations then for Sunday for all of us to go out?
FC: ?!?!?!
Going out for a Valentine’s Day dinner with TRF seems wrong to me. Am I wrong for feeling this way?
There is so much more I have to get off my chest but that’s all I have time for. That's why this is “Part 1”.
~ FC 03 februari Steelers Super Bowl Parade: TODAYHere in the town of Pittsburgh we all bleed black and gold. Today we are having a celebration parade for our Super Bowl Champions. People have started lining up for the parade at 8:00am this morning. Right now we are barricaded inside of our office building because three of the four streets surrounding my office building are closed. Read here about our legendary franchise of the Steelers and a few reasons why we love them so much. If you want to read about our fabulous quarter back click here and see what makes him so great. I am not ashamed to admit that I was part of this craziness, which is why I was so tired yesterday. But I did walk away with a t-shirt, ball cap, and long sleeved t-shirt. I do believe we are the only city that would call for our schools to have 2-hour delays due to the Steelers playing in the Super Bowl. And since msn spaces changed the way they store photos you’ll have to click here to see some great Super Bowl photos. Okay, I’m sure you’re getting tired of all of my links so that is all for now. The city of Pittsburgh is gathering for a great celebration. There are an estimated quarter of a million people expected today and a third of the Pittsburgh public school kids are absent from school today. Do we take our team seriously? Absolutely!
~ FC 02 februari STEELERS ARE THE ONLY 6 TIME SUPER BOWL CHAMPS!!!! WOO-HOO!!!Very, tired.... very, very tired! After the super bowl last night My Prince, The Royal Family, and I went to Dick's Sporting Goods to get our SB champ gear. Which resulted in us not getting home until 12:30 and me then having to wake up at 5:30 for work. It is now 4:30pm and the lack of sleep has caught up with me. My body is begging me to eat more (looking for more fuel) while at the same time begging me to go to sleep. It was worth it though! We had a blast! I still can't believe we won the super bowl! Our SB parade is going to be tomorrow afternoon. It's SO exciting. Okay... that's all I can muster right now. Need to get sleep.
CONGRATS STEELERS!
~ FC |
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