A Fat Chick Trying to Find Herself: Blog

I'm off on Vaca!

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 16:26:04 GMT

I'll be back July 8th!

Update and Weekend Plans

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 16:53:07 GMT

Overall the network upgrade went well. As you all know I was most worried about the Ex-file and was thankfully released from that horror. The night was long and boring but I made it through and the next day we were met by only a few bumps in the road.

This weekend is jammed packed with fun! Tonight I'm going to the Pittsburgh Pirates' game. I'm not so much excited about this but am excited about being in the ball park with My Prince. Then tomorrow I'm going out to eat with My Prince, my Dad, his wife, and possibly the Royal Family. It should be a fun evening regardless. Finally, on Sunday we're going to My Prince's Grandma's house for his favorite crawfish dish. I hate it but it's fun to watch My Prince indulge in this once a year treat.

Happy Friday,

~FC

My Favorite Compliment Made to Me Today

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 16:44:27 GMT

My co-worker had reported a problem with a network printer she was trying to print to so I told her I would look into it. I started poking around with the server it was installed on and saw that it had started printing again. So, I tried calling her to see if it was working and she walked to my desk. This was the conversation that had transpired:

Co-worker: Did you do something to the printer?
FC: Yes, I was just going to call you and ask you if it was working.

Co-worker: Yeah it is! You really do, do magic!!! <~~~ (I loved this!!!)

Happy Friday Eve,

~ FC

No Ex-File !

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 20:38:36 GMT

HE'S NOT COMING!!! YAY!!!

~ FC

The Ex-File – Mixed with a bit of ‘Strange’ and ‘Happiness’

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 14:25:52 GMT

Carrie Quote of the Day: (I’ve missed these! How about you?)

Carrie: When a relationship dies do we ever really give up the ghost or are we forever haunted by the spirits of relationships past.”

The Ex-File

Does a weekend “fling” constitute as an “ex-file”? Well, in my world it does. Here are my points:

q You get that same horrified feeling inside when you know you are going to be in the presence of that person

q All of the memories of the time spent together come flooding back

q You go out and buy a few new shirts to look good even though you look worse than the last time you saw them

q You are secretly happy that you’ve “put on a few pounds” since the last time you saw them because then this should thwart them off from thinking that there will be a repeat of what happened last time

q You are happy that you have pictures of your current Love hanging up in your cubicle

q And if you still don’t agree with me… how about, “someone who has seen you out of your clothes” should change your mind

I am in the horrible situation of being faced with this ex-file tomorrow and Thursday. I’m trying to think of different ways that I can get out of this encounter and keep coming up short. I just can’t wait until Friday when all of this will be behind me. Oh, I just had another thought! I have several new adorable girls running around the office this time compared to last time. Unfortunately those girls will only be around for about an hour after the arrival of the ex-file tomorrow. I have to beg, plead, and bribe my manager into staying with me the whole time tomorrow night; I just hope she plans to stick around. (Mental note: Send e-mail to manager after posting this to find out if she plans on staying and if not BEG!) If nothing else this encounter should end up being a good post. Send me a few good luck vibes that all goes over smoothly and let it be over as quickly as ripping off a band-aid really fast.

*EDIT UPDATE: I just noticed that I failed to tell you why this is happening. My office is doing a network upgrade and this ex-file is part of the project. Actually he will be the one in charge of making this project happen. So, yeah… “awkward” is the understatement of the year.

Strange

It sounds like my “safety net” of being able to live with my Mom this summer has a few holes in it. Her Royal Highness (my step-sister) had moved out of my Mom’s house and in with her boyfriend. Well she now wants to come back home. I was supposed to get her room and now I’ll be getting the much smaller room. That’s assuming that my Mom still has this house to live in come August since her landlords are thinking of selling the house (and Mom doesn’t have enough money to buy the house). FUN STUFF going on here! I talked to My Prince about all of this and he said he would be speaking to The Queen (his Mom) soon about having me move in with them. Whisper a prayer for me that she will let me do this, please?

Happiness

My Prince and I have been in perfect harmony together these past few months, it’s been GREAT! I thought I’d mention this since I do a lot of whining and complaining here about how depressed I am and how horrible life is. We have another fun filled packed weekend coming up. My Prince’s Aunt and family will be coming here this week from Louisiana. On Friday we will be going to the baseball game to see the Pittsburgh Pirates versus the New York Yankees. Then on Saturday, My Prince and I will be going out with my Dad and his wife for my birthday dinner. Sunday we will be going to My Prince’s Grandma’s house for a famous Crawfish dish that My Prince LOVES. I’ve tried to get the recipe from his Aunt but she won’t share. Go figure…

So I am blissfully happy in Love and I don’t care how mushy that sounds because it’s TRUE! My Prince makes me weak in the knees and my heart flutter.

I’ll keep you posted on how my week goes,
~ FC

Birthday Celebrations

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 13:26:06 GMT

Warning: In the fourth paragraph there is a small spoiler about Sex and the City. I’m sure most of the world knows this information, but those of you who are a bit behind like I was, don’t read it!

My personal “birthday bash” day went over just as I had planned. There were very few glitches along the way. On Tuesday night I went to my local BlockBuster Video Store and became a member. I rented the rest of the Sex and the City seasons I did not see yet. I bought myself a half chocolate half strawberry milkshake from McDonald’s and went home for the night. I spent the rest of my evening watching Sex and the City. I ended up staying up way past my bedtime and it felt great!

On Wednesday I slept in until 10:45am. I then continued my Sex and the City marathon until 12:00. I then took a shower to get ready to have lunch with My Prince. I finally indulged on a craving I’ve been having for a very long time. For lunch I ordered a cheeseburger, French fries with cheese, and a peanut butter cup milkshake. I have no idea why this has been a craving of mine but I decided it was my birthday and I could indulge in it if I wanted to. I ate half of my burger, not even half of my fries, and drank the whole milkshake. I was SO full! I will not be doing that again for a very, very, long time!

After lunch I went to a nail place to get a “Spa Treatment Pedicure”. It was fabulous!!! I’ve never had a pedicure done because I don’t like the idea of people touching my feet (especially my toes). But this was a GREAT treat for my birthday. During the pedicure I sat in a special chair that massaged my back, my feet were sitting in a pool of water that had jets in it to massage my feet, while my feet were being prepared for the pedicure. I can’t believe how much I enjoyed it! I highly recommend it to anyone even if you are freaked out by the idea of someone touching your feet.

Then I went home to continue my S and C marathon. I was disappointed to find out that I was missing a few episodes in seasons five and six. So, when I return the series I rented I’ll be looking for the ones I was missing. I can’t wait to see the movie! One of the biggest disappointments though was finding out that “Mr. Big’s” real name is “John”. That is way too ordinary a name for Mr. Big.

Once My Prince was done working he came and picked me up for a wonderful dinner out at the “Cheesecake Factory”. I ordered a portabella mushroom sandwich and it was delicious! I also had my very first Mojito and enjoyed it as well. Of course we had to have a piece of cheesecake! We ordered a chocolate peanut butter cheesecake and I was ready to die! I had the perfect day off from work with the perfect food and the perfect guy.

My birthday celebrations are continuing this weekend as well. I’m hoping that My Prince rents me a Mustang for tomorrow to drive around in (hey if you can’t own one, why not rent one for the day?) and then on Sunday my Mom is having a BBQ for me at her house.

I hope everyone has a great weekend! I know I will!

~ FC

My Birthday Plans and some Updates

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 13:21:38 GMT

Tomorrow is my birthday and since getting older isn’t fun any more I try to distract myself from that fact. So, last week I requested a vacation day for tomorrow. I am SO glad I did. What a wonderful gift to give myself? This is what I plan to do with my day off. I’m going to sleep in. As in sleep until my body wakes me up and not an alarm. I’m going to workout (can’t skip this, especially on my birthday with all the goodies I intend on having), shower, and then get my first ever pedicure. I told My Prince at the beginning of this month that “I wanted to do something on my birthday that I’ve never done before.” I’ve always wanted to try a pedicure so tomorrow I will. I’m also going to go to my local video store and rent as many seasons of “Sex and the City” as possible. I’m dying to see the movie but want to see the complete series before I do. Right now I own seasons 1 through 3. I’ve seen several episodes from the other seasons but want to see ALL of them. Then I’m going to meet My Prince for lunch and will proceed to consume a cheeseburger with cheese fries and a milkshake, which of course means I’ll have to workout again. I will spend the rest of my day alternating between watching “Sex and the City” and reading a book outside in the sun. Once My Prince is done with work we will then go to the Cheesecake Factory where I will delight in some more goodies. I can hardly wait to start!

It’s official, my apartment has been rented to someone else and I hate the way it feels. I have until August and then I have to get out because someone else will be living in my home. I won’t feel so bad about this if I can live with My Prince and the Royal Family. But if I have to go live with my Mom and the Evil Step Father, it’s going to be hell on earth. Please whisper a prayer for me that the Royal Family loves me enough to take me in until My Prince and I find our own place.

I spoke with the guy who I’ve been in contact with regarding that job opportunity I wanted this summer. He didn’t mention anything about anyone else already having the position and told me he “promised” to call me as soon as he knew anything. He also spoke of having me still “join the team”. So things are still up in the air apparently. It’ll be interesting to see where every thing finally lands. I’m not holding my breath though. I’m still keeping the frame of mind that the position has been filled.

I guess that’s it for now.

Happy Tuesday!

~ FC

My Mosiac

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 14:54:46 GMT

I got this idea from: Billie's Ongoing Saga
Instructions copied here:

Here is what to do if you would like to create your own mosaic:

Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search.
Using only the first page, pick an image.
Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into fd’s mosaic maker.

1. What is your first name? Fat Chick

2. What is your favorite food? Peanut butter

3. What high school did you go to? Disclosed info

4. What is your favorite color? Blue

5. Who is your celebrity crush? Johnny Depp as Capt. Jack Sparrow

6. Favorite drink? "Love" on the beach ;)

7. Dream vacation? Tour of Europe

8. Favorite dessert? Chocolate Peanut butter *anything*

9. What you want to be when you grow up? Happy

10. What do you love most in life? My Prince

11. One Word to describe you. Dreamer

12. Your flickr name. I made one up. Can you guess what it is?

This was a lot of fun to do! Give it a try!

1. Fat Chick ;], 2. Peanut Butter Cup Heart, 3. I Love To Read.....3, 4. Blue Rose, 5. * Capt Jack Sparrow * OOB, 6. Love on the Beach, 7. Pieces of Europe, 8. The only reason to eat at Friendly's, 9. happy happy..., 10. My prince, 11. ...you will say...I am a dreamer..., 12. Book Worm

Down and Out

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 20:19:28 GMT

(Alternate TItle: Crash, Boom, Bam!) - This is an alternate title because these are the sounds of my dreams crashing down on me.

Yesterday I found out that the job opportunity I was looking forward to getting this summer is no longer available to me. The job was for a school district as their Network Administrator. The reason I didn't get it (or the opportunity to even be considered) was because since they are a union they offered the job to everyone inside of the union first and only if no one wanted it would they start to look in the public. Some one wanted it... and some one got it. They didn't even interview me. To say that I'm disappointed is an understatement. I had at least wanted a chance to get this job and I didn't even get that.

With that being said, My Prince and I now have the freedom to look for a house where ever we want. My Prince and I are now discussing the idea of me moving into his parents' house once I'm "kicked out" of my apartment instead of moving in with my Mom who lives on the opposite side of the city (but would have been the side I needed to be on for this new job).

I guess I really had my hopes up for this job opportunity even though I tried to keep my feelings in check. I just feel trapped in this job that I can't stand. Even when I have opportunities made known to me, I still can't get out.

I just... don't know.

~ FC

Randomness

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 16:27:30 GMT

The reason for my recent absence is due to the fact that there really isn't anything interesting going on right now. I'm just doing a lot of the same stuff every day. My Prince and I are still looking for a house, I'm still packing for the move, I'm still waiting to hear back about the job opportunity this summer, and I'm still waiting to see if the Penguins will pull off a win for the Stanley Cup after all!
Work has been keeping me rather busy lately. We just had two people who were fired which made my work life a little complicated. At the same time we're getting new people in who need to be trained and set up on the network. I enjoy being busy at work though. It definitely helps with the time going by faster.
My Prince and I both got sick last week. Unfortunately, My Prince had a worse case than me. But I think we're both on our way to recovering.
We also braved going to Kennywood park for the first time this season. I love going to Kennywood. It means summer has started, the rides are great, and just remembering all the memories that were made there is great! They also added a new ride for this year which of course we just had to check out. It was a bit disappointing but I'd ride it again.
In the "book world" I fell back into the Twilight series. I had a work meeting that was mandatory that I go to but had nothing to do with my department. They just wanted me there for "just in case" of technical difficulties. The hostess of the meeting even advised me to "bring a book". Since I've already read through my entire library at home I had to pick something I've already read. I went with the Twilight book and I'm glad I did. I'm now re-reading New Moon and am just falling in love with this series all over again.
I've been rather stressed out over the fact that my landlord put up "For Rent" signs in my yard. It's a constant reminder that come August I will no longer live there. She's also showing my apartment today and tomorrow to prospective tenants. I HATE IT! I've also been packing up my stuff to prepare for the pending move. In case I haven't mentioned it, I'll be moving in with my Mom and the Evil Step-Father if My Prince and I don't find anything before August. I'd really rather not do that, but the more the days go on the more it looks like it might come down to that. We'll see. I hate the idea of leaving my home for living with the Evil Step-Father. If it were just my Mom I'd be thrilled at the idea. But I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.

That's all I have for now. GO PENS!!!

~ FC

Hockey Night

Wed, 28 May 2008 18:02:11 GMT

Well the boys are going to try and pull one off on home ice tonight. I do hope they succeed. All I can do is wait and see.

GO PENS!
~ FC

Hockey Dreams

Fri, 23 May 2008 12:15:12 GMT

Alternative Title: "Obsessed Much? 2"

Last night I had a dream that I could play ice hockey. I was perfectly comfortable ice skating (I wish) and was out there playing hockey with the likes of him:

At one point in my dream I was skating with Malkin and talking to him getting hockey tips from him. The funny part was I was speaking Russian to him since he isn’t that great speaking English just yet. Someone on the ice yelled over to me, “You know Malkin?” I smiled and held up my two crossed fingers and replied, “Yeah, we’re tight like this! If only he’d catch on to English though! My Russian can get a little rusty.”

Then I was warming up with the rest of the players on the ice doing laps around the ice. I was worn out and slower than usual. I told my teammates it was because I hadn’t eaten anything yet that day. Then, just as the game started I saw some of my other teammates not doing too much to help the team while a few others and me were skating our heads off. I looked at them and yelled, “Skate! Get out here and skate! We need your help!”

We just barely won that game. Afterwards, we celebrated in the locker room. By “we” I mean these guys and me:

If you’ve been following the hockey world you’ll know that my Penguins won the Eastern Conference Trophy, because we rock! Also, you’ll know that the Pens are heading to Detroit to play the first game of the Stanley Cup finals against the Red Wings. I am SO excited! Not that you couldn’t tell by my dream or anything, lol.

Our arena is opening its doors to us this Saturday night to watch the first game on the jumbo-tron for just $5.00. My Prince and I haven’t decided yet if we’re going to go. But it’s still pretty cool to think about.

I’ll be off this Monday for the holiday. I hope you all have a great weekend!

~ FC

Missing That Girl

Wed, 21 May 2008 12:34:01 GMT

I’ve been thinking about the past a lot lately and can’t help but remember a certain girl that I miss dearly. She was so athletic and actually enjoyed exercising. She liked it so much that at one point in time she seriously considered becoming a trainer or going to work as an aerobics instructor. She was very aware of what she ate but at the same time she allowed herself the occasional treat.

One of my favorite memories of her was when she was at her sister’s place with her Mom and her sister’s then fiancé. They were getting ready for her sister’s bridal shower that day. She hadn’t had much to eat prior because she knew that she would indulge a little more on the yummy goodies at the shower and didn’t want to over do it on calories. As it happens her sister’s fiancé was eating Chunky Monkey ice cream. She asked for one bite of the ice cream, being ever so disciplined, but after a few more bites her sister’s fiancé offered her the rest of the ice cream which really only consisted of three more bites. She accepted the ice cream and then later on that day restricted what she ate, walking around with her hand to her belly saying she was so full because of the ice cream she ate earlier that day.

I would often see her with her hand on her stomach like that. She always claimed it was because she was either starving or so full that she had to ease her belly with a gentle rub of her hand. But I know that secretly she did that because she loved the way that her stomach felt underneath her shirts. She couldn’t believe how small and flat her belly had gotten and she was eager to get it even smaller.

Her favorite thing became buying baby doll t-shirts with quirky sayings on them. Wherever she wore them she would constantly get nice comments on them. I must admit that she looked darn cute in those shirts. I remember quite clearly a time when she went to her bf’s cabin for a weekend trip and she was looking adorable in a hot pink shirt that said, “Everybody loves a cowgirl” and cute little jean shorts to match. When her bf saw her he took her into his arms hugged and kissed her and said, “You look hot!” He was right she did look hot.

It’s funny thinking about that girl now. She was always working towards getting healthy and being in shape. I wish she had realized that she was well on her way to getting there. But all she saw was more weight that needed to be lost and a fat stomach that wasn’t as fat as she thought it was.

Even with that being said she was still a happy girl. I’ve been thinking about that girl and missing her terribly recently. Hopefully, following the same steps as before I’ll be seeing her in the mirror again in no time.

~ FC

Donuts

Fri, 16 May 2008 13:14:56 GMT

Dear Jack @$$ Co-worker,

Who ever you are you need to be FIRED! I can’t believe you brought donuts into work today! TWO BOXES of donuts! With delicious chocolate, powdered sugar, and glazed!!! ARE YOU INTENTIONALLY TRYING TO DRIVE ME INSANE?!?!?! Because it’s working…

Your Friend Who is Trying to Lose Weight,

~ FC

A Quckie

Tue, 13 May 2008 15:27:36 GMT

Last Saturday My Prince and I made an offer on this cute little house we found. The process of trying to write up an offer took us four hours to do (yes you read that right). Unfortunately, on Sunday the sellers' made a counter offer and made it clear that it would be their final offer. Well, since their counter offer was pretty much the same amount as they were selling the house for we refused their offer and walked away. So now the quest of trying to find that perfect house is still on. But at least we gained experience on how this process goes.

My beloved Penguins have won their second game in this series Sunday night so now we go to game three! It's SO exciting I can barely stand it!!!

That's it for now.

~ FC

Please help if you can...

Fri, 09 May 2008 15:47:52 GMT

I've read the Fat Cyclist blog for quite a while now. When I read this I knew I had to do something. Here are the details:

Dear Readers of Fatcyclist.com,
This last week has been truly tragic learning of the down turn of Suzan’s illness. As I read these comments left by all you good people, the over all theme is the same. “What can we do for Elden, Susan and their kids?” I decided it was time to stop wondering and time to start doing. I set up a bank account in Elden’s name at a local bank here in Utah. It is linked to pay pal. The pay pal account is winsusannelson@gmail.com . If you don’t have a pay pal account you can also donate by going to my business’s website http://www.kennysphoto.com and clicking on the link in the middle of the page, where you can donate with the credit card of your choice. Please know that all funds collected will go directly to this bank account and after a two month period will be given to Elden, Susan and Family. Elden is unaware of this account, until now, of course. I’m not sure how he will react to this comment, but if he removes it, I’m going to continue to put it back on his blog and I invite you as fatcyclist readers to also put this on your own respective blogs. I truly believe that we bless our own lives, when we help others, so I hope that Elden will allow us to help him through this very trying time in his life. He truly has touched each one of us, through his writing and his friendship.
Respectfully yours,
Kenny

Thanks!
~ FC

Update

Mon, 05 May 2008 15:25:57 GMT

I'm happy to report that I sent in my application for that job I'm trying to get this summer. My fingers are crossed and I'm hoping for the best. Also, My Prince and I have been pre-approved for over the amount of money that we need for the house that we are interested in. We will be making an offer on the house either today or tomorrow. Either way I'm rather excited about it. I can't wait to live with My Prince.

This weekend was great! My beloved Penguins won their game yesterday afternoon and will be playing again tomorrow against the Philadelphia Flyers which will definitely be interesting. My Prince and I with my Dad and Step-Mom went over to see the house that we are interested in which means I got to see it again. I like it more every time I see it.

With the beautiful spring weather I've become more active. I've been walking outside a ton and have even been doing some home exercises. I hope to jump on the weight loss wagon again and see what happens.

I'll report more when I know more.

~ FC

Nothing New

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 16:08:52 GMT

There’s not much going on right now, that’s why I haven’t posted recently. My Prince and I are still thinking of buying that perfect house I had mentioned earlier. Right now we’re in the process of seeing how much the bank will be willing to loan us.

My beloved Penguin Hockey team has made it to game 3 in round 2 so that’s exciting. I went to the afternoon game on Sunday last weekend, which was fantastic! I can’t wait to see what they do tonight!

I received my one piece of information that I was waiting for to send in my application for that job I want this summer. I’ll be contacting them to find out the address and attention that I need to send it to today.

These are some exciting things going on but I’m still waiting.

~ FC

Things Are Changing

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 13:29:21 GMT

Yesterday, I voted in the PA primary election. I found that so exciting! PA hasn’t been part of the primary election in a very long time so I was happy to be part of history.

I also had a small hang up in my plan to move in with My Prince this summer after I find out if I’m getting this job that I want. I forgot that even though I moved into my current apartment in July that my landlord had me resign the lease in May the following year so that I could fall into her “leasing period”. So, when I received the lease in the mail last week I was suddenly reminded. Luckily, I made the phone call to my landlord and she is going to let me pay month to month until I figure out when I’m moving out. She just wants a 60-day notice, which I was relieved to hear.

Tonight My Prince and I are taking his parents and my Mom to see the house we saw last weekend that we both liked a lot. Not to mention that it’s located in the area of town that I would have to live in if I got this job this summer. YAY! I just hope things keep falling into place for me. I’m getting rather nervous.

Happy Wednesday,
~ FC

Family Packed Weekend

Mon, 21 Apr 2008 16:23:56 GMT

I was looking forward to this weekend and dreading it for the past few months. The dread was due to the fact that I’ve put on a lot of weight due to my depression and there is the whole subject of my depression. But for the most part I had a great weekend with my family.

Friday night I enjoyed a wonderful dinner out with My Prince. We had SO much fun it really lifted my spirits. After dinner we went to Wal-mart to finish up my last minute shopping for this weekend. I had to buy birthday gifts for my great uncle. We were throwing him an 80^th birthday party and I had a hard time finding him something appropriate. We ended up getting him a family photo frame, a robe, and slippers.

On Saturday I woke up early with My Prince and grabbed a bite to eat for breakfast. Then I went home to get ready for the party. I was SO excited because not only was my family from out of town coming but my Pappy from Arizona was coming too! It was so good seeing everyone! I had a blast with my cousins that I hadn’t seen in a while. My uncle seemed to have a good time as well.

Then on Sunday my Pappy wanted to do a brunch with the family before heading towards Maryland with my out of town Aunt and Uncle. We got up bright and early and I was thrilled that I was able to sit right next to my Pappy during brunch. I miss him so much! I told him I want to come see him in December. I just hope that I can. He will be turning 80 this December as well.

Then My Prince and I went to a bunch of open houses and found The. Perfect. House! We’ll be making another visit with My Prince’s parents to get their opinions on it. I’m crossing my fingers that we can get it.

That was my weekend. Now I’m back to the daily grind. One of the exciting things going on in town today is that Hillary Clinton will be speaking a few blocks away from my office. I’m going to walk over to hear her on my lunch break.

Tomorrow is the PA primary election day! Don’t forget to vote!
~FC

A few quick things

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 13:11:54 GMT

My library is so high tech that I just found out that I can download audio books from the Internet onto my MP3 player. I thought this was great for when I go on my walks, riding my stationary bike, or walking on my treadmill so that the evil neighbor lady doesn’t yell at me for having the tv on at 5:00 in the morning. But I was wondering, does listening to an audio book count as having “read” a book? I will admit, since you all already know how obsessed I am with books, that I felt cheated out of the actual reading aspect of listening to the audio book. But I am definitely hooked on this new discovery. I thought it would be perfect for me since I already had an MP3 player, the iPod Nano. But, unfortunately for me, the audio book format does not work on iPods. I then decided to look at which MP3 players they would work on. The cheapest one was $38.00. So, naturally I decided I didn’t need this cool form of entertainment and that I would just keep it old school and listen to my tunes on my iPod. Only that stupid cheap MP3 player was calling my name. Then once I found out Wal-mart had it for $35.00 that was the end of me. I had to have it! So, now I’m the owner of a SanDisk Sansa Clip MP3 player and love it because it plays my audio books. YAY!

Also, my beloved Penguins have just won game 3 of their first round of NHL playoff games. One more win and they can move on past Ottawa, YAY! I won’t mention that I’m dying to have one of these. I also won’t mention my ongoing obsession with HIM. And just in case you don’t know who HE is by looking at those pictures of HIM, click HERE. But for those of you not willing to click on any of those links, this is who I’m talking about:

Obsessed much? Uh… Yeah!

As far as the whole “crazy FC” saga goes… I’m still crazy. I think the meds are helping but I’m still not back to normal (whatever that may be). I’m trying but am still feeling held back by something. That’s the best I can explain it. But I’m just trying to take things one day at a time.

Last but not least My Prince and I found this amazing house last weekend. Unfortunately this house is on the wrong side of town because it’s on my current side of town and not my “maybe soon to be” side of town if I get this job I want this summer. But it is perfect in every sense of the word. It’s a great size for us, great location, has a wonderful neighborhood, doesn’t need any work done, and the price is in our price range. But I need to wait and see if I’m going to get this job or not first before we can do anything *sigh*.

If I don’t get this job, I think I might just quit my current job and run off to marry him:

Good plan B, don’t you think?

~ FC

Good Day

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 14:15:49 GMT

I've been complaining a lot on here so I figured I just had to post today even though I don't have much to say because I'm feeling very happy today. I did do my exercises yesterday just like I said I was going to so I felt better about the brownie (thank you for your comments by the way). Plus, I went out with My Prince to look at a potential house that would have been perfect except for the price tag. My Prince is going to try and get the guy to come down on the price but I'm not going to get my hopes up. Plus, the Penguins won their game last night which was very exciting! The best part is I get to go to their second playoff game tomorrow night! I'm VERY excited about this because I've never been to a hockey playoff game. I'm also trying to get my office manager to let us do a Penguins day tomorrow since the city is doing a "Penguin Jersey" day tomorrow. But we'll see what happens. I also spent the night with My Prince last night (which is always a wonderful thing) and woke up this morning in his arms (another wonderful thing). It's a beautiful day so far outside! I also got my fingerprints done this morning for that job I'm hoping to get this summer. So overall I would say I'm having a pretty fabulous Thursday.

I apologize for the one big paragraph, but I'm in a hurry so this is what you're getting.

Happy Friday Eve!

~ FC

A Brownie For Breakfast

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 13:29:04 GMT

To someone else, a brownie for breakfast would seem like a wonderful idea. But to me it means extra ~~minutes~~ hours of exercising to trick my body into believing that the brownie never existed. I forgot to pack my cereal into my lunch before leaving for work this morning. I packed the milk but not the cereal, which left me with no breakfast this morning.

Now I know what you all are thinking, “Couldn’t you buy something for breakfast?” or “Who cares? Skip breakfast.” Well, one of the things that I have not blogged about is that I’m trying to be healthy (for the one millionth time). My therapist supports the idea and thinks it will help me pull out of this funk, which to a point it has. But moments like this have me crashing back down and feeling awful. Especially when the perfect looking brunette girl with the perfect body comes to talk to me. You know the kind of girl that if I were a man I would be ecstatic to date her? Anyway, I digress; I’m pinching all of my pennies right now and absolutely cannot spend money on things that I didn’t budget for including something as simple as a five-dollar breakfast. So buying something is completely out of the question. Also, skipping breakfast wasn’t an option because I was so incredibly hungry this morning from my almost non-existent dinner portion lastnight I really needed to have breakfast.

Well, one of my co-workers brought in brownies this morning and there was my answer. A brownie for breakfast (just for the record I just typed “breakfat” and had to retype “breakfast”). So that sugary chocolate bit of goodness has me feeling awful this morning. Not to mention the fact that I didn’t workout this morning. That’s something else I’ve been doing, more exercise. I wake up at 4:50am and do a 50-minute workout and then when I get home from work I go on a 30-minute walk. Even before the brownie breakfast I had decided that I would do my 30-minute walk at lunch today and then after work I’d do my 50-minute workout.

The reason why I skipped my workout this morning was because I was overly tired. The alarm went off and I turned it off and immediately fell back asleep. I woke up fifteen minutes later, saw the time, and didn’t even remember the alarm going off or turning it off. I allowed myself to go back to sleep. It’s very rare that I’m so tired that I turn off the alarm without realizing it.

Blah! So, here I am feeling fatter than before I ate the brownie.

That’s enough complaining for today.

~ FC

P.S. The Pens are having their first playoff game tonight. LETS GO PENS!

I Love To Read…

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 13:35:15 GMT

And because I do love to read I just had to do this once I saw it.

Nearest Book: I Am Legend by: Richard Matheson

Page 123 & 5th Sentence, then Type Sentence 5-8

Here is the Excerpt:

She looked around the room.

“You’ve certainly done a wonderful job,” she said.

“What about your house?” he asked.

“It was nothing like this,” she said. “We didn’t have a—“

“How did you protect your house?” he interupted.

“Oh.---“ She thought a moment. “We had it boarded up, of course. And we used crosses.”

“They don’t always work,” he said quietly, after a moment of looking at her.

Friday

Fri, 28 Mar 2008 19:17:05 GMT

I’m doing better today. But I apologized to my co-worker who I snapped at and am waiting to speak with the person who caused all of this in the first place. I’m happy it’s Friday and am ready for the weekend. Enjoy the weekend everyone.

~ FC

MAD

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 16:40:39 GMT

I am so angry right now over something that happened at work that I could just scream. I called My Prince and spoke to him about it but my blood is still boiling. I needed another outlet, so here I am. I’m telling the world that I am pissed as hell over something that happened at work today. I could spit fire right now (my Mom says that). My stress, tension, and anger levels just blew through the roof. I spoke rather angrily to a co-worker and am now feeling guilty and ashamed for the way I spoke with her. But most of all I’m angry with the man who caused all of this and for making me feel this way. I know I need to calm down and relax but I just can’t. My neck is sore from the tension in it, my head hurts, and my stomach is filled with butterflies. I was having a pleasant morning until this happened now I’m having an unpleasant afternoon. Things will calm down and I’m sure it’ll be all right but just so the world knows, I’m MAD!

~ FC

I’m Okay

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 16:46:45 GMT

I haven’t been posting in a while because I didn’t know what to post about. I still don’t know what to post about but figured I’d just ramble on a bit so you all don’t think I just fell off the earth.

First, I’m glad to report that I am feeling better. I don’t know if it’s just the meds, the walking, or the therapy or perhaps all three combined but I’m feeling better than what I was. Yesterday was a great “mood” day for me. Meaning that I was feeling rather good yesterday and happy. The best part is that it seems to have carried over into today as well. But I’m not going to tell you any of that because I might jinx it, lol.

My Prince and I have been looking for a place to live and well, My Prince thinks he’s found the perfect place for us. I like the place as well I just have my reservations on the whole subject mainly due to the fact that I have a job opportunity coming up this summer and it would involve us moving to another part of the city than where this house is. The job requires me to live in that part of the city, no exceptions. But, I don’t have the job… yet. But we’ll see what happens I suppose.

My sister and her ex-fiancé are still living together and it would seem he is going to move with her at the end of this month. What will happen from there, who knows? All we can do is sit and wait to see what the idiot decides to do.

Also, I just watched the movies: Becoming Jane, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (with Johnny Depp), Eragon, and In Her Shoes. I enjoyed Becoming Jane if you are a Jane Austen fan than this movie is definitely for you. It’s romantic and heart breaking. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was a bit of a let down. Call me old fashioned if you will but I like the older version, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, of this movie better. Johnny Depp was just creepy in it (which I suppose he was supposed to be). Eragon was absolutely fabulous! I do recommend reading the book first (which is what I did), but I thought the movie complimented the story well. In Her Shoes was very close to being like the book and was very enjoyable. Again, I recommend reading the book first though because the movie leaves out some fun things and background information that might confuse you.

Speaking of Eragon I’m reading Eldest which is the sequel to Eragon and of course I’m loving this book! It has quite a bit of action in it from an unexpected source and a lot of drama. It’s amazing that this young author was able to create such an exquisite world full of magic and wonder.

My good mood also may be due to the fact that one of the horrific managers here in my office will be out over the next few weeks. Today is the first day that she is out and the atmosphere in the office is so much lighter than when she is here.

Well, I think that is enough randomness for today. I cannot thank you all enough for your kind words and support.

~ FC